Friday, March 12, 2010

It's been 2 weeks and 3 days since surgery..........and..........


......... I am very discouraged today. My mom left yesterday to go home since my husband was coming back from work for a week. (He works on a tugboat and is gone 7-10 days and nights, then home 5-7 days and nights) When I walked out of my bedroom yesterday morning, I saw that she had stripped her bed and had her stuff packed. I started crying and I am not sure I have stopped yet. Last night I cried because I had to ask my BFF to sweep my kitchen floor. She was happy to do it of course but I felt like an idiot asking. Today I cried because I walked in my daughters room and her bed was not made. I realized for the past week my mom had made her bed and opened her drapes every morning. The after a shower I cried because none of my granny panties were clean. Not that I wanted to wear the granny panties AT ALL but my bikinis hurt my incisions. So.... I cried because my fat old lady underwear was dirty and also because I had to wear granny panties at all LOL. The I walked in the kitchen and saw that the biscuit pan was on the counter and I cried because my mom had made me homemade biscuits every night while she was here and I loved them so much. I realized I won't get those tonight. My husband just hugs me and laughs, then I cry because he is laughing "at me".  He really isn't, but hey, the sight of a usually (fairly) sane woman crying over her underwear is kinda funny if you think about it. And he is a guy, who is doing the very best he can.

SHEESH! I am a  TRAIN WRECK!

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4 comments:

Stephanie Napier said...

girl I'm crying with you. I hope you feel better soon. I love you and I'm praying for you. Maybe my life will slow down here and I can help you.

Gardner's said...

I am laughing with you and your husband only because when I had Kora... the same thing happened to me... my husband had to take a week off of work just to stay home with me so that i would stop crying... it is amazing how our body handle surgeries and how our hormones’ go all crazy... (and I cried about having to wear granny panties as well...)

but I DO pray that you will be able to take this as a blessing that sometimes all the little things that we put on and do everyday are a blessing... we just never realize it until things change. WE LOVE YOU and hope you get well soon!!!

Jamie said...

Oh girl... you're a riot even when you're miserable. LOVE you! :)

Debbie said...

It is just your hormones adjusting to everything. Be thankful you had Mom there to help with everything while Jamie was on the boat and that Jamie has been such a wonderful support system. It will get better, I promise. It bas been three weeks today, I hope and pray you are finally getting yourself back together. I love you and miss you.